#34
As I walked back toward the group, Rodrigo gave me a knowing grin, clearly sensing something had shifted in my mood.
“Everything okay, man?” he asked, raising an eyebrow.
I shrugged, “Yeah. It’s fine. It’s just my sister asking if I’m having fun.”
“Oh, that’s good.”
Feeling a little tipsy, I stood up and went toward the restroom to pee. However, when I reached there, there was already a long line forming, so I headed back inside the house.
There were fewer people now compared to this morning. Most of them left for home already.
Inside the house, the atmosphere is quite different from the pool; here, tranquility and a strange kind of intimacy fill the space.
The music had softened to a mellow hum, barely louder than a whisper. A soft, jazzy rhythm flowed from the living room speakers, and the scent of wine and perfume lingered thick in the air.
The lights were dimmer now, warm, almost golden, giving everything a hazy, dreamlike glow. I turned to the corner, heading to the restroom where I met Morgana, when suddenly a pair of arms wrapped around my waist from behind.
I was so shocked that I instinctively tried to break away, but I was overpowered and was dragged into a corner. A hand swiftly covers my mouth, and my head is jerked back by the hair.
“Don’t scream. It will only hurt you more if you do.”
“…?!” I struggle against the weight pressing me into the wall and try unsuccessfully to bite her hand, when suddenly I recognize my attacker.
“Hmmhmm?!”
“Yes, babe, it’s me,” the girl said with a menacing smile.
It was a girl, shorter than me, with a cute face and curly lavender-toned short hair, giving off an energetic, delinquent vibe. If I’m not mistaken, she’s none other than Johnson’s girlfriend- her name should be… ahm, Lina… Mina, ah yes, Tina!
She was smaller and thinner than I, but where the hell is this strength coming from?!
This world’s nonsensical setting is annoying sometimes!
“Let’s have some fun,” Tina purred in my ear, her breath hot against my damp skin.
I tried to wiggle out of his hold, but my movements only seemed to embolden Tina to run her hands up my torso and towards my chest. I could not help but grunt in pleasure as she cupped my chest and pinched my nipples, his breath fanned my neck. She began to grope me over my bra, hidden by the oversized cardigan I had worn.
“Sauntering around with just a skimpy clothing, don’t you think you’re teasing us too much, Al?”
“T, Tina, what the hell are you doing?! Are you insane?! Let me go.” I said when Tina pulled her hand from my mouth and grabbed my legs, pulling them apart.
“You know this is your fault, right? You walk around so sluttily like this,” she moans while kneading my chest and rolling my sensitive nipples between her thumb and forefinger. This drew a gasp from me. One thing I realized after coming into this world is how my nipples became more sensitive than normal.
I don’t know why. Or maybe this was how male nipples work in this world, and also the reason why men always wear a bra. And before I knew it, I felt myself getting aroused as Tina continued to pinch and twist my nipples with just the right amount of pressure.
I tossed my head back as white-hot pleasure coursed through me.
“Man, you smell so good~!” Tina buried her face in my neck and ground her hips into my ass as she continued to draw pleasure from my now hard nubs.
I grunted and clenched my fist. I love sex. But forcing me? Not gonna happen. I clenched my fist and was about to struck her with my elbow when suddenly a small figure darted between us, breaking Tina’s hold on me. It was Ally, his eyes flashing with anger.
“Back off, Tina!” he growled, grabbing her arm and pushing the girl away.
Tina dared to look sheepish.
“I was just joking,” she protested, raising her hands in mock surrender.
“Scram!”
“Okay, okay, I’m sorry,” Tina shrugged before turning around and running away.
Ally let out a heavy sigh, turning to face me.
“This is precisely why I told you to change, didn’t I?” he said, exasperation clear in his voice.
I shrugged sheepishly, suddenly feeling foolish for not heeding his warning.
“Thanks… that escalated quickly. But damn, she’s strong…” I mumbled gratefully.
Ally just glared at me, unamused, before his expression softened into one of resignation.
He grabbed my arm and immediately led me away from that dark corner and into a nearby couch, where he made me sit. He then left only to return soon after with a glass of water.
“Here,” he said. “Don’t worry. Tina will pay for that.”
I look at him and smile wryly, “What are you gonna say? Tina assaulted me?”
That kinda stings me. A man, bigger than the girl, claimed he was assaulted by her… that would make me a laughingstock in my old world. Although the girls in this world are monstrously stronger than men, my male pride can’t accept that.
“Yeah. I never liked her.” Ally scowled in anger. “I’ll tell Rodrigo and the others about this. That fucking bitch!”
“It’s fine, Ally. You know Jonathan loves her.”
“I don’t care! She almost raped you!”
“…and it’s because of me.”
Not like I don’t have any self-awareness. Of course, I knew what led to this incident.
It’s still Tina’s fault. But the majority of the blame would be on me, after all, I’m the one wandering around in a skimpy attire, acting like a sex-starved bitch. I shrugged, smiling wryly. I just got what I deserve, is what anyone would say.
“Still,”
“It’s fine. Let’s just keep this between us.” I said. Ally still looked unwilling, but I grabbed his hand to assure him. “Promise me?”
Ally frowned, but in the end, he let out a sigh and shook his head.
“Are you sure you’re okay?”
I smirked, “I’m fine. If you didn’t show up, I would have turned the tables on her.”
“No way.” Ally immediately said. “Not gonna happen.”
Strength-wise, maybe I lost. But that is not what I mean… it is what I wanted to say, but I keep that to myself. This guy might once again start scolding me for being a pervert.
…suddenly, I recalled what Morgana had told me about her son, which, somehow, I’ve forgotten until now.
“.…I have a question,”
Ally looks at me, “What?”
“Your mom said, you told her, we’re sleeping together… are we?”
I can only remember bits and pieces of the memories I shared with him. Although I felt that we were very close in all those memories, there was nothing that truly showed that we were together.
“You, you forgot.”
“What?”
He shook his head. “No… I thought you were avoiding me. So, you don’t remember… is that because of your, you know, accident?”
“You know about that?”
“Everyone knows. They just don’t want to say it, to avoid making you uncomfortable,” he said.
“So… are we?”
Ally looked at me with a teasing smile, “What if I said, yes… what now?”
I frowned.
I still can’t believe it.
“…so, I’m gay…”
But contrary to my shock, Ally let out an amused grin, “Maybe, maybe not.” Then he grabbed my arm. “Anyway, come on, let’s go. I saw my mom over by the bar. Let’s get you a drink.”
I almost instinctively pulled my hand back, but Ally was stronger than he looked.
“Don’t do that,” he glared at me.
“I… I’m sorry.”
His brows furrowed.
Then he let out a sigh.
“… just think about it. You don’t need to worry about the past. You have no obligation to continue that relationship.”
“I’m sorry.”
“I said, don’t apologize!”
Ally growled in annoyance.
Suddenly, he pulled my hand and slid it inside his shorts.
“What are you doing-?!”
I almost pulled my hand back when I felt his small, limp dick. However, something was wrong.
I felt something wet- well, it was wet because he was just playing in the pool, but it’s a different wet. Colder than the pool water, and a bit slimy… intrigued, I went deeper and suddenly the tip of my fingertips touched something…soft.
This is…?!
“…And you’re not gay.” he looks at me with a hurt expression.
“You’re… you’re a man, right?”
“It depends on how you define a man.”
“I never knew that, that it’s real… I mean… I heard about it, but”
“It’s not something you publicize over. And it’s uncommon, but it’s not unheard of.” Ally muttered.
“…Do the others know?”
Ally frowned. “Of course not! You’re the only one who knows.”
“I’m sorry.”
“I’m sorry about what?” he snarled. “If you’re sorry about something you don’t like, you don’t need to say it.”
“N, no… It’s not that. I mean, I’m sorry, I forgot what we are. My, my head is a mess right now, so, so maybe, I, I don’t know.” I grunted.
Ally’s expression softens.
“I’m not forcing you, Al.” he said. “And we are not a thing…there’s no us.”
“Wh, what? What do you-”
“It’s just convenience,” he said. “There is no us. At least, nothing you should worry about. You can go around and play with your ‘female friends’. We’re in a relationship where you give me what I want. I give you what you want… that’s the kind of relationship we have.”
“…??”
Ally stood in front of me. He held my hand and said with a faint smile on his lips, “You’re not comfortable with women, but you still want to do it, especially after Rodrigo got a girlfriend. You told me it was not fair. And there is I, that is neither, but have both. I let you do it because you’re comfortable doing it with me.”
“…so just that?”
“Just that.”
“…so, you’re not in love with me?” I asked, giving her a fleeting glance of guilt or shame. However, I want to make this relationship clear.
Ally was surprised when I asked that.
“This is not about love, Al. It never was… I have the desire of a woman. But there’s no way to vent it, not with this kind of body. I can’t tell anyone about this. It’s hard to have a normal relationship with this kind of body. I am neither a man nor a woman; I can’t even give birth. People like me are treated as freaks of nature.”
“Ally, that’s not…”
“I know. I’m just saying the truth. No need to sugarcoat it. My mind is clouded in lust all the time. I want to do it. Over and over again. But one thing I can tell you is that I’m not someone who sleeps around, Al.” he said. “…and I don’t give my body to just anyone else. So can you get a hint, already?!”
That took me by surprise.
“Look. I am neither a man nor a woman. And I won’t say which I am… You decide that,” he said casually, but I could hear sadness in his voice. “I can be a man, and be your friend. I can also be a woman, if that’s what you want. I can’t decide that for myself…”
“…Can you give me time?”
“… …”
“You know it’s hard if you just lay it all out to me so suddenly.”
Ally looks at me before he lets out a chuckle.
“…alright. I will take that positively.”
“… …”
“At least you didn’t reject me directly.”
“You know I won’t do that. No matter what happens, you’re my friend Ally. And I owe you for always watching over me.”
And I mean it.
I may be a scumbag, but I pay my debts. You know what they say, “When drinking water, don’t forget who dug the well.” This is also the reason why, although I’m not gay, and as straight as a pole man, after hearing my relationship with Ally for the first time, I was hesitant.
If it were someone else, I would have cut them off already- no questions asked.
But Ally is different.
Unlike Rodrigo, he’s been good to me.
Ever since I came to this house, he’s always been there, helping me. And even for some reason, I’ve always felt nothing but goodwill from him, and in return, I felt completely comfortable with him. I may not remember all, but somehow I only have good feelings for him. It’s a strange feeling.
Ally looks at me.
“Yeah. You look different from before. But deep down, you’re still you.”
“That sounds cringey.”
“Fuck you.”
And we both laugh.
